Breaking up is easy. Moving on is another story. Lucky if you can have good terms with your ex after the breaking up and just forget the everyday dilemma he or she has brought you. Rarely that this situation will happen. I mwan, sh*t happens. After each bitter or i-agree-with-you break ups, there's a high possibility that either one of you would still want to continue the 'connections' that you have had regardless of you intention. You've shared almost everything. Lame jokes. Silly conversations. Late night walks. Early morning kissing scenario. Crying times. Untimely drinking sessions. Kitchen to bathroom you-know-what scenarios. Meaning, you can hardly hide something away from him or her. Being obvious doesn't have to give a satanic look followed by a flirty wink nor shout out loud so that he or she can hear the obvious. One thing is for sure, one of you would want to just walk away and forget the crazy nightmare of the other. Because, you wouldn't be splitting if both are sharing their best to continue the i-love-you journey.
You will always be stuck with 'that awkward moment'. Along the course of your 'pseudo relationship', both of you may have known common people ; common circle of friends. That's when the moving on part becomes the hardest - when the two of you tried to move on and all others think that you are still 'together'. You might get invited into a party or any social gathering, surely one of your friends will not fail to drag a certain situation that the two of you can relate. And, suddenly the spark thing will go back to life. And one of you will be avoiding that moment and would have wished it never happened.
Another difficult moment would be, when you have a 'reunion' with the 'present'. You may have prayed to all the deities to perform some sort of teleportation and bring you to any boring place aside from that 'reunion'. Seeing your special someone being happy or together with someone else whilst you haven't completed the moving on stage is like being nailed alive. You can't just escape it. You just wanted to disappear and disregard any second of seeing them together. That sucks. You may want to cry in pity for yourself or anger in yourself for you want your 'someone' back - just for the sake of revenge, anyway.
You wouldn't want to listen to a few songs especially the ones that you've sang together. Every line would remind you of something that you've gone thru or something significant that you have shared. Each beat would make you remember of something you may want to forget. Melody may bring back the past but heart would agressively fight with your mind. Tendency is, you may want to switch to Metallica songs or Red Hot Chili Peppers stanzas. That sucks!
While it is true that sad movies can make you cry, it also made you giggle once. Maybe twice or more than that when you were with him or her. Seeing same genres of movies will make you reminisce the past; making you imagine that possible happy ending that you have previously hoped for. Chances are, you may still want to watch the same movies all over again or you will totally hate them as it make you feel lethargic.
The trick is try your very best to ignore him or her. It will be a tough do-or-die; that is, if you really wanted to move on and forget every single day that you've spent with THAT person(now you should practice the art of using third person when you refer to him or her) and accept that you can't really be friends with THAT person, not GOOD friends. It is an adage that in order to move on, you must be willing to take one step and see yourself to be somewhere else. Moving on is like having a flat tire. You can't go anywhere unless you change. I dunno if these statements make sense but it should somehow move you to just ignore, maybe pretend that things didn't happen. That making friends with THAT someone will just ruin everything. Unless you have violent reaction, feel free to answer this blog.
PS. I think this is a bit disorganize. I should move on.
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